God is good!

This Outreach week was an incredible time where God totally helped me to understand more of him, his grace and mercy over us. He is mighty and he is strong, there is nothing he could do and in him we will accomplish his perfect plan.

We were a group of many different people and characters and I thought I would it be if we are all together for the whole week. It was suppose to be a prayer outreach and I wanted to pray a lot but at the same time I was afraid that it could also be hard to pray with this people. But it was so so so so good.

It started Saturday night, we met with people from the church we would do the whole Sunday service next day. And we had a great time but everybody was just tired. We had to little houses to stay in; one for the girls one for the guys. We meet in the guy’s house and the key of the girls house was IN the girls house and we recognized that by almost midnight. This gave us a reason to stop and pray. First I was mad; because it turned into a loooong prayer without an end; but than I gave up and God totally moved me, too. God didn´t open the door this night- not supernatural but still- and he gave us the picture that he has the key. He has everything under control and he can open and close doors where ever HE wants to.

This was the beginning of a challenging but really blessed week. We talked to people on the street, worshiped in the streets, could witness to some people. We met different Christian groups and every time there was this special unity among us. We could totally feel that we belong to the same family and that we have the same father; we worshiped and prayed for the different cities together. WE were encouraged by them and they said the same about us.
One day we worked the whole day in a front yard to make it nice looking for people who couldn´t do it. After that my hand hurt so bad, the rest of the day till we prayed for it. It wasn´t right after prayer and honestly I anyways just thought prayer wouldn't damage anything so let us do it but I didn´t really believe it would help either. But after I brushed my teeth I realized that I was using my hand totally normal again and that it wouldn´t hurt anymore. I was so surprised and sad at the same time that I didn´t expect God to answer our prayer. But he is just greater than we are and merciful and it doesn´t depend on us!!

There was another situation were I was so discouraged about and it really stopped me and brought me down. I prayed and asked God either to confirm me somehow or to just take everything away. And he did it totally different that I thought but he did it and again I was surprised about how he answers my prayer.

And through the whole time he kept saying me; not trough me or my strength but his strength and trough his spirit. And I really was week and the only thing I could do was trust on him and waiting on him and he proofed him one more time faithful!
Where ever our group stopped or was we prayed or worshiped the Lord; someone always came up with a song or we just made up new songs!



First I had a hard time to be back on the campus and just keep going on with “normal” life which isn´t really normal. But what I really want to expect and experience is, that God is the same God and that he is also trustworthy here in Siegen. Again I could totally tell that how important it is that he is my everything, my fulfillment.


"Schönster König" ( a wonderful song!)
Deine Fesseln, befreien mich.
Deine Wunden, heilen mich.
Der Zorn des Vaters lag auf dir;
die Gnade Gottes über mir

Schönster König, mit Dornen gekrönt,
so gerecht und rein trugst du meine Schuld;
der heilige Gott, starb meinen Tod.
Schönster Jesus, mein schönster Herr!!

OUTREACH

Tomorrow our outreach week starts and it is every semester very exiting. This semester I knew I am suppose to stay in Germany and one team is going to Wilhelmshaven and so I started praying about going with them. I got a peace and joy over it so I decided to attend this group.
And tomorrow the trip finally starts.. We leave by noon and have the whole Saturday to make us comfortable over there and go shopping so on.
This week have been very hard for me and I got a lot attacked; sadness, being encouraged and just general weakness. But the Lord told me over and over again, that this would be warfare and that I shall fight in his power and in his strengh! And I think all this weakness had happen and is still because the Lord really wants to teach me to depend on him. And I have to this following week because otherwise I don´t know how to handle all the confusion in me.. and there is a lot! Maybe I will be able to share a little bit more some day, but not right now. Who ever is reading this.. just pray to God; that he is all I have my eyes upon and get my strength from!

Wilhelmshaven is the city.. just pray for an effective week and that God really can use us!!

Time- patience- and great expectations

Time is running so fast... I think I am keep saying that but.. actually it is sooo true. I feel like the summer would be over for month now. It is getting cold and rainy and we are already totally into the whole semester work. I mean I still don´t know all the names of the new students and still things coming up which seem to be new but in general it is like every time.

Right now I am in a block class that means every afternoon I have to sit there for 3 hours and get through the book of revelation. I like it but it is really hard to get everything done with this many hours in class.
On Wednesday I have my last day on work- my last night. I will make, for the people who live there, an ice-cream party- I will miss them, because they are great people (not necessarily the co-workers but the disable people) but still I feel so blessed with this job I can´t imagine that God is so good to me.

I mean he is good all the time and I´m learning right now how good he is and how important it is to depend on him and on nothing or no one else. It is hard sometimes, of course, but it is worth it! I want to learn to be totally surrendered to him and be obedient in every situation and in every single part of my life!
There is a lot going on inside of me, I will share maybe another time, but I know the lord will lead me every step and I will not miss one! The road, even if you can´t see what comes up behind the corner, we can know that he knows and that he will take us by the hand and lead us!

Summer break No.2

Somehow the summer just ran away.. Now august is almost over and also the new semester starts in 3 weeks. I don´t know where the time went but everything is just flying.

The weather in Siegen also seems to be changed and autumn seems to be in front of the door. I mean I love this season; when leafs change their color… but right know I am not ready for this! I still need some weeks of summer; I still have some weeks left of the break.

The break went so fast and everything came different than I thought it would be. But I am thankful because most of the things came much better than I ever thought. One of the things is my job. God gave me this wonderful opportunity to earn enough money for the next semester and to go back to my occupation. Actually I really like to work with handicapped people; but I think this night duty thing is not necessarily the best for me. I am so thankful because also to work in the night, I thought it would be harder for me but it was ok. But I am glad if this is over soon and that I just have to work in September again. I mean first I thought I would like to work and study but actually I think I don’t want it; but I will see- I do what ever the Lord has prepared for me.

Also the whole thing with my moving from one apartment to another; it was not as bad as I thought it would be. I had a great time where ever I stayed and I am so thankful for all the people who let me stay in their apartments.

I don’t know why but I thought this summer would be a hard time for me; I thought now is the time where God wants me to put in practice all the things he taught me. I mean sure I had to and it wasn’t or isn’t easy all the time; but God was and is so gracious to me. I started the summer with such a sweet time with the Lord; he seemed to be closer than ever. Sure it didn´t last for a long time but it was a good time and now I know what I am fighting for; a God who waits for me; who has great things prepared for me and just loves to spent time with me. And I just want to be how he wants me to be; and I want to get in to the position where he really can work on me and change me.

I think this is everything my summer was all about. I mean it isn’t over jet but pretty much so I just have to prepare my self to get ready for the next season. But the good thing is; you know that the summer will come back next year and that it is for sure that the sun will shine again.. and of course it is for sure that God´s love will never end and that he is patient and faithful and that he is the same. Like the summer will come back for sure he will never change and most important he will never leave me or forsake me.

I am really exited what will come next semester and what he wants me to teach next or where he has to go back and give me a lesson in a already familiar subject!? You never know!
But right now I will enjoy the last weeks of my summer and just think and life in the moment and not ahead.

God´s hand in Denmark

Last week from Wednesday to Sunday I was in Denmark; there was the Calvary Chapel Scandinavia conference. For me it was not just a conference where I helped out; for me it was an experience full of miracles and God´s merci and his leading:

Anja asked me a few weeks ago if I would like to go to this conference to help out there. I was immediately totally enthusiastic for it; even if I didn´t know who would come with me and what my task would be. But than I figured out that I had to work these days; so I had to try if one of my co-workers would switch with me some days. But I didn´t hoped that somebody would swap so many days with me. But I prayed; if God really wanted me to go he could make it possible. And it worked out; one of my co-workers swapped all the se days with me.

Anja left for vacation and I had to organize everything for our vacation to Denmark and I got in contact with the guy how organized everything. I still didn´t know for sure who would come with me; but he told me that we would be in charge of the kids-ministry and that we would have 11 kids in different ages and with different languages. If I would have known before that I would be in charge of the kids-ministry there; I think I would not was so enthusiastic for the whole thing.

How ever; now we had our small team together; three girls (Wendy and Katha and I) would drive with the Bible collage car to Denmark. Everything was taken care of, even the payment for the transportation to Denmark; it was amazing and we all were exited.

Two nights before we wanted to leave; I had my last night to work and during that night I got sick. I felt so bad and after work was over I went home in my bed immediately. Fever and diarrhea made me feeling so bad that I was not able to get up to move out from the apartment I stayed into the next where I would stay after Denmark. I texted about 10 people and asked them to pray for me, but I was sure that it would be a miracle if I would be able to drive to Denmark. I cried and gave it back to God; I was so sure he wanted me to go but no the door was closed; but if he still wanted me to go he could just make it possible.
After sleeping for another while I felt much better and I was able to clean up the apartment at least a little bit (sorry Miri&Andrew) and I moved to the next one. I still felt sick but much better than before and I decided if I would feel like this tomorrow morning I would go to Denmark.

Finally we made it to Denmark; I slept the most of the ride and was very thankful that Katha and Wendy liked it to drive.
I thought that would be enough of God´s hand in the whole thing; but it turned out that we would need God especially for the whole time there with the kids. 16 kids in the ages of 2 to 12, four different languages and some of them didn´t understand english at all. But God took care of everything; each single session. He gave us great ideas for games and he helped us to find ways to communicate with the kids; he gave us the strength when we thought we could not do it any longer. It was really amazing to see how God works even in the “little” things or rather for the little ones.

Now I am back and I really miss it. I am so thankful that we could be a blessing for all the parents there and also for the kids. I am so thankful for the great time, the beautiful nature, the ocean we directly stayed at, the great weather. God showed me again and he proved it that when I trust in him, that he will take care of everything; and if I give everything back in his hands, that his will, will be done.

Funny Weekend!

Last weekend my "old" room-mate and her husband came to visit me and the Petzis.. and also to see the little sweet Aaron guy for the first time! It was really funny to be with them..Here some pictures to get a glimpse of it!!




This is my absolutly "coolest" Papa ever and his friend Tobi!!

Thoughts on life

Life is not easy at all. How could it? We live on this earth. The earth tells you the whole time, you have to be someone; you have to be famous; you have to be successful and beautiful; you need money and a nice car and you need a comfortable home; without a partner something is wrong with you; you don´t look like a Model and you are not intelligent like Einstein? Wow, you have a problem…

This is what the world tries to tell us; everyone of us; with no excuse. But it is our decision if we want to listen or not. I mean, I would lie if I would say that all these things would pass me without even spend a thought on that this could be the truth. And sometimes it really cost me a lot of time to not try to be someone like that; to know and learn more things, to whish to have a nice home or enough money or even try to make me look more beautiful. BUT.. these are all lies; it means it is not the truth. These things all will pass away, they will not last forever; why should I try to be someone who will not last forever, something that will die in maybe a few years. That´s absolutely illogical!
Tell me just one reason why I should try to be this kind of someone!! That people will like me better, love me more? Which kind of people are those who are looking in others for those things? Do I really want them as my friends, as people I should listen to?

No, rather should I be someone who shows them that there is more in life. Not everything is about success, beauty, money or what ever. What about love? If I would be like the world wants me to be, who would love me for just who I am? Who would love my real I?
GOD, he is the only one who gives us other principles to live for and after. In his world everything is about love. First of all just to be loved by him; to except the great and everlasting love of God. That he loves us even with all our failures; with all our wrongdoing; with all our self-centeredness. The only thing we have to do is to except his perfect love even if we are imperfect. And than start to love him back because he loved us first. To give him our failures and try to be with him a better one; let him work one us, because he is the only one who can “mold” us to better and more useful man. And if he is the centre of our lives we will get to know that there is more in life than what the world tries to tell us. If our eyes are focused on him no thing, nothing ever could bring us down. That doesn´t mean that we aren´t sad sometimes, that we feel lonely or long for things. No, that would be a lie. BUT, if he is our centre, we know that life is more than just these few years, it is more as to try to be someone, it is more than to leave a sign on earth. Than we will find eternal life, life that will never end, life that even death can´t kill. And in eternity nobody will ask how you looked like or how much money you had or where you lived or something like that. No, they will ask if you got to know God, if you loved him. They will ask you what you did with the precious time on earth; if you used it to love others, to spend time with them and tell them, that the world is just telling lies.

Because I know how hard it is not to believe what the world is saying; the voice is so loud and the way so wide and it seems so easy to just follow. Because of that and because I needed a reminder I started writing that to tell you, don´t listen to the world. Even when it is hard sometimes to find God´s soft and still voice; he is there and he is waiting; he always waits; he always loves; he never changes.

“Thank you father, that you are always the same. Thank you that you will never change and that I can come back; even when I started listen to all the lies; but I know and I understood it new that you are the only one who can satisfy me and give my heart what it longs for. Help me to hear you still small voice again and mold me to what ever you want me to be. I want to be your be loving child, I want to be someone in you kingdom; a someone who loves you with all my heart and mind and with all I am.“