Funny Weekend!

Last weekend my "old" room-mate and her husband came to visit me and the Petzis.. and also to see the little sweet Aaron guy for the first time! It was really funny to be with them..Here some pictures to get a glimpse of it!!




This is my absolutly "coolest" Papa ever and his friend Tobi!!

Thoughts on life

Life is not easy at all. How could it? We live on this earth. The earth tells you the whole time, you have to be someone; you have to be famous; you have to be successful and beautiful; you need money and a nice car and you need a comfortable home; without a partner something is wrong with you; you don´t look like a Model and you are not intelligent like Einstein? Wow, you have a problem…

This is what the world tries to tell us; everyone of us; with no excuse. But it is our decision if we want to listen or not. I mean, I would lie if I would say that all these things would pass me without even spend a thought on that this could be the truth. And sometimes it really cost me a lot of time to not try to be someone like that; to know and learn more things, to whish to have a nice home or enough money or even try to make me look more beautiful. BUT.. these are all lies; it means it is not the truth. These things all will pass away, they will not last forever; why should I try to be someone who will not last forever, something that will die in maybe a few years. That´s absolutely illogical!
Tell me just one reason why I should try to be this kind of someone!! That people will like me better, love me more? Which kind of people are those who are looking in others for those things? Do I really want them as my friends, as people I should listen to?

No, rather should I be someone who shows them that there is more in life. Not everything is about success, beauty, money or what ever. What about love? If I would be like the world wants me to be, who would love me for just who I am? Who would love my real I?
GOD, he is the only one who gives us other principles to live for and after. In his world everything is about love. First of all just to be loved by him; to except the great and everlasting love of God. That he loves us even with all our failures; with all our wrongdoing; with all our self-centeredness. The only thing we have to do is to except his perfect love even if we are imperfect. And than start to love him back because he loved us first. To give him our failures and try to be with him a better one; let him work one us, because he is the only one who can “mold” us to better and more useful man. And if he is the centre of our lives we will get to know that there is more in life than what the world tries to tell us. If our eyes are focused on him no thing, nothing ever could bring us down. That doesn´t mean that we aren´t sad sometimes, that we feel lonely or long for things. No, that would be a lie. BUT, if he is our centre, we know that life is more than just these few years, it is more as to try to be someone, it is more than to leave a sign on earth. Than we will find eternal life, life that will never end, life that even death can´t kill. And in eternity nobody will ask how you looked like or how much money you had or where you lived or something like that. No, they will ask if you got to know God, if you loved him. They will ask you what you did with the precious time on earth; if you used it to love others, to spend time with them and tell them, that the world is just telling lies.

Because I know how hard it is not to believe what the world is saying; the voice is so loud and the way so wide and it seems so easy to just follow. Because of that and because I needed a reminder I started writing that to tell you, don´t listen to the world. Even when it is hard sometimes to find God´s soft and still voice; he is there and he is waiting; he always waits; he always loves; he never changes.

“Thank you father, that you are always the same. Thank you that you will never change and that I can come back; even when I started listen to all the lies; but I know and I understood it new that you are the only one who can satisfy me and give my heart what it longs for. Help me to hear you still small voice again and mold me to what ever you want me to be. I want to be your be loving child, I want to be someone in you kingdom; a someone who loves you with all my heart and mind and with all I am.“

Oh yeah, that´s a new picture; like I promised. This is how I look right now- not the nicest picture but you know now!! :-)

*Summer break No. 1*

It´s me again... I am not sure how to fill up all that pages and what to write, what you could be interested in. Let´s see.. right now I am enjoying my summer break; I work half time in a home for handicapped people in a nightshift.. but I just have to work 8 nights a month, so I have a lot of time. But I am not bored, everyday there are other things to do. And I really love to spend the time with all my new friends here from Siegen. To watch movies together or just eat something or go for a walk- what ever just hanging out together. I love that part!

But sometimes still life is not easy and I feel all alone fighting through it, but God is good. And I think this is my chance to show and practice everything what I´ve learned during the last semester. I mean God really taught me, that he wants to be my everything and that I have to give him everything- all my dreams, desires and wishes.. He is faithful and patient with me, because sometime I have a hard time with really doing that. But, I really want to use that time even it´s not always easy to get closer to him..

My mom got a little Puppy and I am really exited to see that little thing. I will show pictures if I saw him. I wanted to visit so many people during the break but I am not sure how to handle it.. I mean the most people I just can visit on a weekend.. and I want to be at the church- you know? And it is expensive to travel by train.. but I am sure everything will work out somehow!

So, that´s me there!! I look diffrent now but this is the newest picture I had- soon I will put a new in there. Now I have another haircut and new glasses... but I am still the same, still Bini!!
Just that you know who we are taking about!!